Miserable

I can't stop tears rolling down my cheeks the whole day today.. I had a miserable day.. I donno what am I gonna do.. I don't want things to happen this way.. I just want to be happy.. Plz God..

On the 4/4/2007.. My heart bleed and pain so badly.. *sigh* We both agree that we did the wrong decision...

To: Sin Yin

To Nicole, sin yin:

How are you my dear.. I feel like we haven't meet for years.. hehe.. I miss you la.. how are you doing there? Is work good? I heard from Lieh tat your LB is doing great.. I wish you success o.. Sometime really wish I'm down in Miri with you guys.. Sometime I'm really lonely here in Brunei.. Esp when it comes to lunch or dinner time.. I juz couldn't find ppl with the right time.. I'm ok with work.. Still ofcoz stress about it.. I know stress is a challenge but now I'm actually starting to hate what I'm doing.. Really bring down my mood thinking about it.. This few days I have been thinking about going to New Zealand to work.. hehe.. I donno when can I actually get to do sometime I like.. But at this time you know la.. I have reasons that make me can't bear to leave yet.. hehe.. Take care of urself.. *hugz*

Love,
Xue hui..

I'm quite down now actually.. I lost the gold bracelet Ah how gave me for Christmas last year.. S***.. I juz realise it after bath just now.. bloody.. It's not the 1st time it gone from my wrist.. This is the third time but this time I'm not tat lucky to find it.. *sigh* How am I gonna explain to ah How?

Donno what's up with my face.. Pimples appearing, seem to get worse.. Izzit my period coming or it's the cleansing foam I'm using, Or I think too much and being stress? *sigh*

Anyway.. It's late.. I'm off to bed.. Bye.. Gudnite..

Frankie

I was catching the new Singapore movie "Just follow Law" with Jita and her friend on Thursday.. and what a surprise I saw Frankie and Sze Jie.. Frankie is my second Ex bf.. but he is counted as my first love.. I like him before I start going out with my first Ex bf.. hehe..

He slim down alot.. and he approach me first.. so good he is not those who won't bother to say HI..
He caught my attention by staring at me and give me a big smile when I saw him.. That's his style.. no change.. hehe..

My heart still beat greatly when I saw him last night.. hehe.. never mind, past is past.. My heart now should beat for the future man.. hehe..

Happy Chinese New Year..

ahh.. March has come.. Chinese New year is coming to an end.. So before it's too late.. Happy Chinese New Year.. On the first day of CNY, I went to Limbang.. thanks to Nicole for like almost forcing me to get there.. I'm so happy to be able to get my butt there.. And I get to meet up with Tze and even ANNIE.. hehe.. Sorry that I have been lazy to blog.. and I fall sick sick during the CNY, now cough like old women.. ba.. Ciaozz..

sleepy..

well well...

I have been feeling like a lazy bum this few weeks.. ahh.. the Chinese new year mood.. hehe..
and I have been feeling like getting not enough sleep at all.. My eyes automatically closes itself when I'm at work ofcoz.. anyway.. Blog again next time.. I need my beauty sleep..

I had lunch at McDonald ALONE this afternoon.. Yea, Alone.. Nothing weird.. Just that some people went for lunch without waiting for me.. *kanasai* I sat there at McDonald for half and ahour plus.. and I enjoy watching people, sitting there the whole time I only saw three couples hold hand.. Two very creative umbrellas.. Kids with rain coats.. A very fashion American mum.. A girl who I read her blog.. and cars ofcoz.. sad is no handsome one to see at.. hehe..

After McDonald I went off to the Mall.. I was suppose to control my money spending untill end of the month.. Which is three days away.. But I went buying stuff!! Oh my.. Hope I can survie for this last three days..

In the evening, went to Big Thumb restaurant to take pictures of their foods for designing.. Ofcoz we get to eat all of the food after work.. Walau eh.. I eat untill I can't walk..

Harry Potter and the Half - Blood Prince

I have been busy with reading my sixth book of Harry Potter.. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.. Pathetic of me as I bought this book a year ago and only now I manage to get my hands on it.. I prefer reading the book version rather than seeing it's movie.. As you know books tells more in detail.. I really love reading Harry Potter.. I tend to put myself into the story.. Trying to understand more and feels it's magic in it.. Every edition of Harry Potter (from the first until now) I will end up crying emotionally at some parts.. Funny huh.. J.K Rowling is really good.. She makes us all Harry Potter fans crazy over her story.. One of my friend told me that the author would end Harry Potter's last book (which will be out soon-the seventh edition) by having Harry die.. I was like.. "what.. cannotttt... NoNOnONONO...." hehe.. I'm so over reacting sometime..
My eye sight seem to get blur whenever I read.. Strange.. I was wearing my spec while reading so why my eye sight still get blur? I think I have to go and check, might be because my eye sight degree has increase without me knowing.. Well, back to my Harry Potter.. =)

Congrats to Siao Hui~

I took half day leave today.. accompany my mum to Limbang to do her things.. and on our way home Brunei.. walau eh.. So long queue la.. And I never expect it too be that Long.. And my car petrol almost ran dry... I was so panic!! but Thank God I was able to get to the Shell station.. Now I'm safe back home.. hehe..

And I did manage to call up Siao Hui to congrats her on her wedding.. hehe.. Now I must think how to arrange my time.. *sighz* Hehe.. I really can't wait to see her looking so beautiful.. Brides are always the most beautiful one.. She remind me not to wear yellow and dark blue.. hehe.. Suspicious one.. That shows she really want her marriage to work out.. May God Bless her, May she has a blessed marriage..

Tomorrow is public holiday but I have to work.. I'm so sleepy now too.. Goodnight..

Free seats by Airasia

Once again Air Asia is giving away 1,000,000 free seats.. Only on certain weeks it's free lo.. Not all the date are available for free.. and I want to book for a flight.. But I have no idea where to go, when to go, who to go with... Duh..

I wanna Travel..

I really want to save money.. So that I can travel.. hehe.. I just love to travel.. I wish to travel as much as I can.. As long I have the money of course.. *sigh* I wish to visit more of Malaysia.. As this year is Visit Malaysia year 2007!!! yippee.. hope I can fly fly away..

Randoms Pics during new year eve..

God bless Connie's sis

My dearest close friend Connie's sister just passed away a few days ago.. I was really shock when she told me this sad news.. It was a sudden death too to her and her family.. Connie said it might be the cause of low haemoglobin.. but the doctor shouldn't explain her sister death too.. !!! what kind of Doctor?? I know she must be going through a hard time now.. I wish her well..

*Sigh* we never know what will happen the next day.. People around us do leave us suddenly.. Either it's because of sickness or accident.. I suddenly thought of my family.. My relationship with my family wasn't that good ever since I was young.. But I guess now seeing my parents getting old.. I need to care for them more.. I know I don't express out to my family.. I do really love and appreciate them.. May God bless my Family.. Keep my Family safe..

2007

2007, People start to list out thier New Year resolution.. and I had been wondering what could my new year resolution..

I haven't been getting enough sleep this days.. Been sleeping late.. I don't know why..

I had a good time on New Year's eve.. I even manage to went to the Funfair at Miri..

I need to save up money to go trvelling.. but I don't know how to save when I have so much to pay each month..

I'm planning to dye my hair.. Hmm.. not sure yet.. Still thinking about it..

One of my Secondary classmate is getting married next month.. shocking news.. Can't wait to attend her marriage day..

I need to get myself to exercise more... HAha.. as if I can..

Alrite.. My eyes are closing now.. I got to go to bed.. Gudnite..

Happy 2007 New Year

It's a brand new year.. Welcome the year 2007.. Maybe everything be better than the year before.. I wish everyone happiness.. Cheers ppl... God Bless Us All..

Merry Christmas..

Merry Christmas~

bad day..

Bad day at work.. Everything I do seem to be all wrong.. So pressure!! haiz.. Lucky tomorrow I'm going to Sibu, Sarawak with my mum and brothers.. Going there to attend my cousin wedding.. *sigh* and I haven't even start packing.. see ya..

Congrats Jeffrey

He is getting married.. He define as Jeffrey Tang.. My ex-boyfriend.. My FIRST boyfriend.. Getting married with a high school girl.. My God, he is just 20 years old.. Why getting married.. He gotten his girlfriend pregnant of course.. I'm so disappointed by knowing this news.. Not because I haven't get over him but because I feel he still as useless as before.. For me he always doesn't have the brain to think properly.. Until today, to me he is still like that.. Hopeless one.. Anyway, all the best to him.. Congrats Jeffrey (for making your gf pregnant)~

stupid being follow and spoiled our fun

Something is bothering me.. My mind wonders by itself again.. Questions with unavailable answer haunt me again..

I had a good weekend.. Friday night had dinner with Nicole, Zhi Ling and Jita.. Then Saturday evening went to the Empire hotel for a walk and sight seeing.. then when night falls after sendingNicole back, Zhi Ling and I went to meet up with Jita for dinner.. Nicole left us early to accompany her parent.. So that night we ate a very full Japanese dinner and it's on Jita because that lady got a big fat commission.. hehe..

After dinner we went to Jerudong park as Zhi Ling wanted to see the place.. So we went there happily and has so excited as there were alot of people and some rides are open.. We were surprise as only need to pay B$5 to play the rides.. We rush to the Merry-go-Round ride.. Feels great as we remembered our time as kids.. But the music they play spoiled the atmosphere.. what the stupid them play Malay rock music? Should play musical music wa..

I notice mostly are Malay people.. and immature kids.. Look at the way they date you sure laugh.. An incident happen to us that night.. It has raining too but just shower type.. We were making our way to the water boat ride.. Soon we each notice an Indian guy walking behind us.. At first we thought we were going the same way.. Sekali I start to notice it's not right so I ask Jita and Zhi Ling to stop and the Indian men stop too.. So to double confirm we start to walk again, and he follow too.. and we three turn back and forth and he still follow.. We started to head back to get help and he also follow.. Luckily I saw a Tourist information room and I suggest we went in there.. I was feeling abit panic but luckily we were with the security after the incident.. and we didn't see the Indian man anymore.. So now whenever I see an Indian man I feel uncomfortable..

A friend of mine appear first thing in my mind when we were heading back to the front gate for help.. I directly call him.. and I never expected him to rush down to Jerudong.. I was very grateful for him rushing there like that.. hehe.. Anyway still have to thank him.. and Thank GOD we are safe..

I have been wondering..

I have been thinking about my Christmas and New Year holidays.. *sigh* how am I gonna spend my holidays? How great it will be if I don't have to worry about air ticket and expenses like Kenny Sia and Xia Xue who always seem to be like flying here and there.. hehe..

I just finish chatting with Nicole.. and viewing her over there through web cam.. Aduh.. I have outdated la.. I forgot there is such thing as web cam liao.. and it's not lagging that much anymore.. Haha.. I didn't even bother to re-install my web cam since my computer reformat like months ago.. haha.. Forgive me.. so where is the heck is that web cam installer software again.. Hehe.. need to dig up my stuff to find it..

Kelik my Indonesia colleague is out from the hospital already.. Hurray.. That mean he soon to be recover in no time.. But he still have problem with walking.. but at least he feel comfortable at home rather than staying in the hospital.. May he recover soon..

I have keep the phrase "stress is a motivation" in my head.. and I'm doing fine nowadays.. Hehe.. Well, I'm doing the graphics thing.. I do all cutting of sticker.. and Recently I hand in a letter.. Not resignation.. Letter of transfer work post.. I have been thinking for quite sometime, ever since I feel that I have lose interest on my job now.. I want to get back doing paper works.. Well, I know it might be boring but I have got to keep myself at that line.. Not doing paper works for quite awhile going to be an disadvantages when I'm planning to switch Job the next time.. Not good.. So I finally decide to get back to paper works thingy.. At the moment I wouldn't transfer as my department currently have only Me, Myself and I.. My boss say he will arrange my work went he finds a replacement.. So, I hope I won't be regretting on making such decision.. Why I think that way? Hehe.. It's because doing the Admin side means facing more of Boss and being under him.. Currently, I'm under my supervisor who spoiled me, I'm not gonna be spoiled by him anymore if I switch department.. *sigh* No choice, for the sake of my future I must need to face the Boss.. I got to have confident in myself..

Me and my pet Mickey.. haha.. cute huh? =P