It's going to be 4am soon.. I'm now sitting and typing here with my cozy blanket wrap around myself.. It's cold in my room.. hehe because I have been sitting under the Air-cond since 12.15am.. So I'm about to be frezze to death..
I wouldn't sleep.. I saw pictures which brings pain to my heart.. HE and his current galfren pics at KL.. He posted in his friendster.. My wound is still in my heart even though I have recover from the break up and have let go of him.. Seeing her, I tend to say to myself.. That was me before next to him.. but now it ain't me anymore.. Not me.. anymore.. I would stare at his pics and wonder, compare myself to her.. but I wake myself up.. I can't compare myself to her.. I'm patricia and not her.. All I can say is.. I would give up things to be the girl he wants.. but he never gave me that chance.. He was blind.. he coulnd't see the changes I have gone through.. I can't say anything.. coz it's over.. Pull urself together Patricia!! hehe..
I guess I'm starting to feel lonely again.. Wish to find myself a lover but I haven't meet one that suits me yet.. I donno when that day will come for me to meet a guy.. I juz hope its not gonna take long.. hmm.. Am I desprate to be in love now? YES!! hehe..
Well, Im starting to feel sleepy already.. Gosh, I'm gonna be a zombie in the office later.. Zombie with her eyes closed walking around.. hehe.. cheers..
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