Favourite bracelet lost and gone T_T

Dodo, I have lost the white-gold bracelet you gave me for my 22nd birthday.. =(

I never took it off but because we were playing volleyball tonight so I took it off.. I'm so sure I put it in my pocket because I put it together with my pink crystal bracelet..

I only realise it's gone after we left the gym at the dark jetty.. My pink crystal bracelet is still here.. and I wish it was the pink bracelet gone instead..

All I can think of is;

If I didn't play volleyball then I won't lost it..
If I insist I don't want play then I won't lost it..
If I didn't go to the gym then I won't lost it..
If If If If If If If..... goes on...

and I stop with the IF thinking..

I calm myself down and re-think.. What's the use thinking about IF this and that.. It's gone and thinking about it won't bring it back.. T_T

One part of me is angry with myself for being clumsy.. One part of me feel really sad that it's gone because it's something sentimental-value for me.. Eventhough the bracelet look simple, simple doesn't matter because it meant alot to me and I love it alot.. Now looking down at my wrist.. It's empty.. So sad..

I guess the bracelet is fated to be gone.. gone, gone, gone....... T_T

Lost and Gone T_T

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Sorry guys for making you all worry when I disappear to look for the bracelet at the dark car park without telling..

Sorry I hope I didn't scare you all when I cry suddenly.. T_T

Chien, Ray and Dan.. Thanks for helping me search for it..

Thanks for trying to cheer me up, the way Ray get 'suan' talk-attack by Joan really helps..

But the best thing was when I receive SMSes from each of you just now, I smile and Thank God for blessing me with lovable friends..

Goodnight..