Sam and Connie

Today an Article I read online caught my attention.. Is it ok to have a relationship with a married guy?.. This articles tells about Sam married at a young age.. He got married to his wife because accident happens.. His wife got pregnant.. So no choice he has to marry her.. He doesn't really love his wife at first.. He gets to be with his wife because he and his friends bet him on chasing his wife.. So he chase his wife and she like him very much until finding him everyday at his house..

It's been three years plus already since they gotten married.. They had a daughter and Sam love his daughter very much.. One day, Sam meet Connie.. Without knowing, he falls for Connie.. And after three months of knowing her.. Sam decided to confess to Connie about his feelings for her.. Connie has surprised ofcoz.. And Sam give her time to think.. Connie knows that there wouldn't be any happiness, if she falls for Sam.. One night, Sam said He loves her but at the same time he doesn't want to hurt her.. But he couldn't control his feelings.. Sam tend to start to love her more.. Connie remind him that he has a wife.. His wife would be really sad if she ever finds out.. Sam told Connie that he did thought of it, but he juz couldn't hide his feelings for Connie..

At the end, Connie tells Sam that it's impossible.. She can't be with him.. She can't falls for him.. Sam accept her decision, but he said to Connie.. "You can't stop me from loving you.. I love you" he continue "Even if you don't love or miss me.. I love and miss you is enough already".. Connie was touched by his words.. Connie just replied him.. "It's enough knowing that you care for me"..

I was curious, if I was Connie, what will my decision be? haha.. What you think huh? If it happens on you, what will u do too? For me, Having such relationship really won't have happiness.. Yea, there will be happy time.. But when that guy returns to his wife side? Who will get hurt in the end? Just like what we always see on movie dramas.. At the end, the guy sure will return back to his wife.. Well, some people do accept this kind of relationships.. Everyone has their own way of thinking.. It's not wrong, it's just a person fate on who they love and who they decide to be with.. Human being thinking and feelings are really complicated..

I met a Fortune teller from China..

Today I was late for work again.. When I arrive, I bump into Uncle * the boss* and he said.. ah Late again.. I quickly greet 'Morning'.. then quickly run away.. Well, I was late not because I woke up late.. It's bcoz I went for breakfast with my mummy and brother.. and the service so damn slow.. Next time have to go extra extra early..

I miss Nicole.. How are you babe? Doing extremly fine I guess.. hehe.. Feels quite lonely witout you reading and comment on my blog..

Songs have memories in it.. I cried each time when I happens to listen to songs which brought back memories flash back in my head.. Well, no worries as it's a very common things happen to human.. Especially emotional one like myself.. I'm not feeling sad or anything in paticular.. It's just memories which are kept in my heart..

A lady fortune teller from China approach me yesterday evening when I was leaving Hua Ho shopping complex.. I was about to drive away then she stop me.. She ask weather I want to have my life tells.. I was curious at what she is trying to say.. and scare at the same time who knows she might try to rob me if I allow her to get in my car.. hehe.. At the end.. I let her in.. hehe.. she told me my problem in life and offers to clear my bad luck away.. By paying B$128.. I was like huh.. I don't wanna pay le.. I said to her that my cash is not enought with me as I have spend.. She look at my bag and said.. "Impossible that only $128 you also don't have".. She even suggest me to take cash out from my ATM!! than I'm starting to feel things aren't right.. So I keep on rejecting her.. Lastly, she gave up and I juz pay for her service.. B$10.. and again she persude me in donating for a blessing.. She said "10 or 20 can already".. I'm like ok ok.. B$10 then.. but what the she say again "miss born in the year of Cow is better to buy in even number, so B$20 is good".. I'm like "shit, she is asking more".. So I quickly said I only have B$10 left and have some malaysia rinngit.. what the then she say ringgit also accept.. but RM20 and B$10.. Walau this woman is good at asking huh.. I say really dont have anymore.. RM10 and B$10 only.. At last she accept and say goodbye and blessing words.. Finally I got rid of her..

I told my dad about it.. Then only I know that newspaper have post about such cases and warn us to avoid this people.. walau.. If only I read the newspaper.. haha.. Nevermind.. Next time, I won't be that soft hearted anymore.. I know they are just looking for cash to live.. but I don't wanna to get cheated.. hehe.. back to work.. ciaozz..

random pictures

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

I took the test above and well, it does describe me.. hehe..

When shopping today after having lunch with *shorty*.. I'm now doing mask to refresh my face.. hehe.. D-I-Y facial mask feels cool and good..

I spend over a hundred plus buying bars and undies.. Shit.. that salegirl so damn good at selling stuff.. I'm the victim.. She introduce me into buying this lovely night gown.. After paying for it then I realise.. What the heck I buy it for? duh..


This is the gift for my mum.. A NINA Ricci perfume and a cute garfield cat which holds the words.. Best Mum..



Amy 'birthday cake.. suppose to be farewell cake.. hehe.. nvm.. as long as can eat liao is enough.. hehe.. Varities of cakes from Ah Khiong.. Not all taste good..

Me with the chocolate from Ah Khiong.. these stuff make me fat lo.. sienzz.. hehe..

I'm me and only me..

It's going to be 4am soon.. I'm now sitting and typing here with my cozy blanket wrap around myself.. It's cold in my room.. hehe because I have been sitting under the Air-cond since 12.15am.. So I'm about to be frezze to death..

I wouldn't sleep.. I saw pictures which brings pain to my heart.. HE and his current galfren pics at KL.. He posted in his friendster.. My wound is still in my heart even though I have recover from the break up and have let go of him.. Seeing her, I tend to say to myself.. That was me before next to him.. but now it ain't me anymore.. Not me.. anymore.. I would stare at his pics and wonder, compare myself to her.. but I wake myself up.. I can't compare myself to her.. I'm patricia and not her.. All I can say is.. I would give up things to be the girl he wants.. but he never gave me that chance.. He was blind.. he coulnd't see the changes I have gone through.. I can't say anything.. coz it's over.. Pull urself together Patricia!! hehe..

I guess I'm starting to feel lonely again.. Wish to find myself a lover but I haven't meet one that suits me yet.. I donno when that day will come for me to meet a guy.. I juz hope its not gonna take long.. hmm.. Am I desprate to be in love now? YES!! hehe..

Well, Im starting to feel sleepy already.. Gosh, I'm gonna be a zombie in the office later.. Zombie with her eyes closed walking around.. hehe.. cheers..

Our Number 1 Float~~!

After the Sultan's b-day 15/7/06 project.. We went busy with the float thingy which falls during the first of this month August.. My company gets to do 4 floats.. Very big and pretty.. On the day of the float function, I was the only girl who took part in joining with the floats from my company.. Not sure what others will think, as long as I'm happy.. We went to the place for stand by at 4pm.. and all the way untill 2am then I went home.. We went back happily bcoz our BLNG float got NUMBER 1!! Boss was very happy indeed.. he told as we must get 1 no 2.. haha.. Thank God we did it..

BLNG float which we got Number 1 for.. Big and beautiful..

It's turning dark.. Night is falling.. Pretty lights are switch on..

I find this float cute looking.. but too bad it didn't manage to get in the Top 10..

this float falls at Number 5..

And lastly.. I never thought this flaot will get any position.. who knows it gotten Number 6.. Happy coz I spend more time on this float..

Never to judge a book by it's cover

I'm now currently in the office.. Have meeting with boss tonight so have to come back to the office.. This few days I don't work OT already.. Feels weird but I love it.. Coz I get to hug my tv the whole night and suft the net..

*geez* I cant help in but to admit Im looking fat now.. Bloody.. but u cant blame me for being happy.. Donno wats up, I din eat much.. but I kind of looking fat.. Jita say coz Im happy.. no reason.. haha.. izzit? I did go swimming le.. NOt that I din exercise.. hoho.. watever.. Im juz being happy.. *wait a minute* must be all those sweet food ah Khiong bought for me.. shit.. hehe..

Today something bothers me.. a question popping around my head.. Do guys get jealous at girls on work matter? and why are ppl so busybody when things isn't about them? Stupid eh some ppl.. Some ppl who I thought are mature but bloody.. who knows they are so childish on some typical matter.. Again to remind myself..Never to judge a book by its cover.. I will blog more later.. Gotta go meeting now.. Time's up.. ciaozzz..

The song 'linger' (hope the spelling is rite) by the Canberries have been playing on the radio and I keep on thinking of my dear Nicole.. Wondering that she must be happy over there.. I wish to join them.. But I cant..

Went to the Mall with Jita juz now, went to see the PC fair.. Guess who we saw when we were looking for parking? hehe.. Nicole's parent.. I shout out 'auntie', and luckily her mum did saw me.. hiak hiak..

Amy has resign.. She said she is pregeant.. So I will be busy again from now on.. Im gonna handle more work from now on.. sienz.. There is already a replacement but has to wait for work pass to get approve then can work.. This new comer is a lady.. same age as me.. quite prety looking, tall.. most of the guys in the company is already attracted by her.. hoho.. hope her style is not bossy or fussy.. sighz.. no idea how to teach her as Im not patient with teaching ppl.. Hope I get it through.. *sighzz*

I'm being moody...

Nowadays I really wanna sit down to blog at home.. But whenever I'm back home my eyes tend to automatically close, which makes me blog now in the office.. I'm really getting tired and tired.. I'm really wandering what job I really wants to work for.. I don't want to work like this eventhough it's not bored. and my job is challenging.. I get tired too.. I'm no superwoman.. How long till I know what kind of job I'm really looking for?

Maybe becoz I'm in a country which isnt my place and they don't hire foreigner.. If I'm at places which I belong too then maybe things would be different.. Since coming back from Miri tat day, I really got myself to think alt of questions again..

Maybe bcoz of Love too.. all my frenz have love one beside them.. where is mine? It's not tat no one chase me.. Just tat this guys are not my type.. No feelings.. Am I being to chossy? Haiz... Maybe I'm tired tat why I'm thinking so much.. God bless me..

Feels like a free Bird

Finally.. I'm going to Miri later in the morning at 6am.. I miss very damn so so much.. It's feels great to be away from work.. Away from endless work.. Away from bloody stress.. I feel like I'm finally set free from nightmare.. hehe.. sound serious.. But then it's really serious ba.. haha.. What I'm worrying right now is my panda eyes.. my eyebag is so thick.. and Jita say I look abit swollen.. strange.. I know my eyes very very swollen donno why my face is swollen too.. hehe.. So sweet of ah How to come Brunei to pick me.. Nicole dear, here I come.. Miri here I come..

Missing u guys..

Today I miss all my friends in Miri so so much.. How I wish I can see them.. Im tired of working at this stupid peak season.. I msg Nicole telling how I miss them.. Nicole now is working in Miri, at Maybank.. Great for her.. She is free from Limbang.. Im sure she will be happy with her life now.. not lonely in limbang anymore.. Good Luck my dear Nicole.. Now me and pang huat is the far far away one.. Miss u all..

Life is so Fragile..

Gilbert.. A philipino colleauge from our company passed away this afternoon.. He was sent to the hospital yesterday morning.. I was able to visit him at night, but he is still in coma.. The Doctor was not sure when he will come over.. Told by Doctor that the chances of him waking up is quite low.. But last night when I visit him, his body still have response as if he was trying to wake up but cant open his eyes.. I was praying for him that he will wake up soon and get well soon.. How I wish at that moment he can talk back to us.. Who knows this afternoon I was told that he have left us..

He pass away just like that.. I was hoping that he will get through but why he didn't? Doctor told that he had a tumor in his brain.. and he was sent late to the hospital.. No idea what kind of wife he had.. His wife had no idea that his husband is sick on the floor.. She thought he is just trying to sleep as he is not feeling well.. Until he puke white foam from his mouth then his wife gets panic and call for help.. what the heck?? Too late already.. In the afternoon his heart stop but doctor saved him back.. but still no hope.. doctor couldn't save him today..

I cried once I get to know that he has passed away.. I never talk much with him.. Juz a few words in a month.. and now there are no more chance for me to talk to him.. Life is so fragile.. You never know when the people around you are going to leave you tomorrow.. You never know when your life will end.. Live life everyday with a blast.. with a smile.. with happiness.. Most important thing people.. Cherish everyone around you.. Cherish yourself..

Happy FAther's Day 18-6-06

I was suppose to blog about saying Happy Father's Day, but I fall asleepjust now, and it's 1.29am at the moment.. I also forget to msg my friend that I got to cancel our lim teh session due to I'm so tired..

So Father's Day once again.. I treat my dad to eat, Very full.. Until now I'm still feeling full.. Happy Father's Day to all dad.. Espcially my dad, eventhough he is stirct and fierce, I know he loves me and my brothers.. I understand how hard my dad has work to keep us well feed and living in comfort.. I'm not close with my dad, I'm trying my best to patch things up with him.. and I can see improvement.. for my dad: Papa, I Love You..

SuRpRiSe~~

I went to Miri this Morning.. My mum went to Sibu for my cousin wedding.. You me, my dad and brothers went to pick her at Miri Airport.. Before my mum arrive this happen.. chang chang deng deng.............

BEFORE

AFTER TO
I arrived Miri, directly went to the saloon.. and had my hair straighten.. I so Love the feeling of straight hair.. I had my hair done at Claire for the price of RM200~ Quite a good budget for me..


I went to parkson and got myelf new earings.. Im loving it.. At Miri I hang out with Alice, lieh and Jennifer.. I ask chai yu to come out, she say tired and even ask whether I got her present or not, if yes then she meet me.. so pathetic her.. Haha.. time to bed.. Ciaozzz....

Lightning McQueen

Last Night... Suddenly me and Jita decided to catch a movie...Introduceing Lightning McQueeen from the CARS~~ Yippie.. Such a cute and funny cartoon.. We even got ourselfs stickers of it.. Cool~~
This picture shows the lovebirds, Sally and Lighthing McQueen.. Blog again soon.. Ciaozzzz

Bringing back my Confidence

I am very very tired.. Since Monday 5/6/06, My company have started working overtime until 11pm.. Due to getting perpare for Sultan's Birthday celebration.. So only have Sultan's birthday next month then I'm free..

Today there was a problem occur on a Job I had done.. Due to the sizes and outcome looks weird.. I donno why, after knoing about it might be a mistake make me bad mood.. Boss have warned us that whenever we did mistake on the Jobs handed to us will get deduct from salary.. I totally lost my confidence already.. I realise I seem to lost my confidence ever since this deducting salary rules appear.. Even Siao Min, my big head of department complain that I seem to be not the one he knows before.. The main reason I lost my confidence is because I already double check alot of times before I start my work, but then make me soo disappoint is eventhough I double confirm or double check still the outcome is not acceptable.. Sienzz.. My eyes are closing now.. I am getting to look like panda already.. Off to bed.. Gunite..

He treats me well too

Ah how came to Brunei last Saturday night 27/5/06.. I was out talking with him until 2 in the morning.. Even get caught by polis.. Haha.. Those polis thought we are doing something else in the car.. I din even bring my IC with me.. Lucky that they let us go.. The polis even chatted with me happily, asking me a lot of question about myself.. he even ask when I'm gonna marry.. Terrible.. Ah how told me that my Ex bf, Kong is so caring towards his current galfren.. Like what ever she wants, he sure no matter how get it for her.. And they are going on a holiday to Kuala Lumpur this August.. I know what ah How is trying to say, he wants me to know that Kong treat her extremely good and treat me differently before..

But then I think to myself, asking myself whether Kong treat me badly before.. My answer is NO.. Kong treated me good.. He took care of me.. What ever I want he also did his best to give me.. Juz that I don't demand him to get me this and that.. Coz My theory is what ever I want I can afford to buy don't need to depend on my boyfren.. Am I wrong for being like this? Do guys like gals who demand more?? I told Rachael about this and Rac advice me that I'm not the demanding type, which makes me good too.. Rac said one day he sure will realize who is better.. Well, Kong and me have broke up quite long ago, and I had learnt not to feel the heartbreak already.. I took this news calmly, no pain but sure I still will think of it.. Never mind.. As long as he treat her well, and she treat him well then its ok.. Sure have my blessing..

Kong, the watch you bought me from Kuala Lumpur had already stopped.. The pain in my heart also have stopped.. Goodbye..

Got myself a new watch today.. butterflies.. =)

Get myself a Laptop? better dont.. hehe

Currently in the office.. Using ah Yap's laptop.. I suddenly have the urge feelings to get myself a laptop too.. but It gonna be a watse if I buy.. coz I wont be using it all the time.. and I find the keyboard not comfy to type with.. Laptop.. Sees like everyone is having it now.. Where ever cafes with wi-fi sure you can get to see packed with people with laptop and their eyes glued to it.. This people sit there for hours with just ordering a glass of drinks.. From what I know my friends tell me that most people sit there for hours coz they download movies, musics and stuff.. Now is not the right time for me to get a laptop and its not neccesary yet too..

By the way, I had lunch with Shirley and Ah Hao today.. They were in town to do some stuff and so they ask me out for lunch.. had a good talk with them, make me miss them so much.. Both still look the same.. Ah hao got his own car now.. Infact its a new one.. I forgot the model.. Ok la, I got to go home now.. its after 6pm oledi.. Ciaozzz...

Happy Mother's Day

It's Mother's today.. Wishes all mummy happy mother's day.. You all are the greatest coz Mothers gone through pain to bring us into this world.. I will treat my family to dinner tonight.. and hope I can get to catch up with Nicole later in the afternoon after I finish work.. She is in town for straightening her hair.. hehe.. bah I got to get ready for work now.. Good Morning to all..

Pictures to talk about

On my way to work yesterday, I saw a car with a a butterfly icon caught my attention.. I so love the way it look so I quickly took out my camera and snap.. Hopefully the driver don't notice what am I doing.. HEhe.. I love butterfly and heart shape..

Ever seen a big big 3D picture? This can be found in my BIG head siao Ming's office.. If you know how to look at 3D pictures then you can see dinosaurs in this picture.. Siao Ming said not much people was able to see it.. I was unable to see too coz not enough concentration.. There is not only one dinosaur, but four.. If only I can bring it home.. hehe..

I was looking back my pictures folder , then I realized that I didn't upload the pictures I took in Kuching during Chinese New Year.. Nevermind, never too late.. I just upload some..

In Kuching, Marcus and his friend, brought me to the newly open garden/park.. There we found a wishing well.. Without hesitate we took out coins and make our wishes.. I made alot of wish.. haha.. coz I don't get the chance to come by this wishing well to make wish all the time.. See quite lots of coins can be see shining.. May all my wishes come true.. =)

Kuching's airport is huge.. It has the same design as Miri.. both design follow the KLIA, Kuala Lumpur's airport..

miri's look better? but Kuching's huge.. hehe..

During my stay there, Douglas drives me around doing some sight seeing.. and he shows me the places where night life entertainment can be found.. And there is this building still under construction, Douglas said it will a big big pub.. Upstair is for disco while downstair are for live band, bistro cafe and stuff.. Cool.. I think it should be finished by now, not sure when is the opening.. I sure would like to drop by this place when I visit Kuching again.. hehe..

Things gets old.. Human gets old.. why everything must get old huh? I bought this nice looking pouch in Kuching.. ONLY after TWO months plus, see what a big difference... HEhe.. Things around us gets old so cherish everything you have.. Cheers..

What to blog about?

I don't know what to blog about.. All I can say is I'm extremly tired.. It's 2am now.. I still don't feel like sleeping.. Mother's Day is this sunday.. which is just around the corner and I haven't decide where to eat.. No idea which restaurant to go or what to eat.. I'm so blur.. I couln't decide..

I finally get my work pass chop and my IC done on Wednesday.. Luckily boss help me to arrange the office girls incharge to do quick quick.. If not sure I donno when they will do it and sure scold me if I keep on asking them..


At the Immigartion waiting for my passport to make IC..

The malays working for the government get to have lunch for one and a half hour le.. So damn lucky and free.. Another stupid thing is that my pic in my IC is very ugly.. My face looks very round.. I hope it's not that bad.. hehe..

The other day I took pictures of Caesar working hard but have no energry to carry things..

Finally, I has able to see caesar help to do hard work..


Then he heard Ronaldo the tough guy calls him.. Caesar turn and look..


Ronaldo then said, "you hold hammer also no energry how to finish this work.. come I show you
.. Bang bang bang.. like this ba.. " Caeser is so weak..

Well, it's late.. Im gonna Sleep now.. nitezz..