Missing Dodo

Dodo is flying tonight.. Dodo is going away for a week.. *sigh* Im gonna miss Dodo so much.. I'm missing Dodo right now already.. *sobs* =(

Marry me.. My blog is sort of my diary..

This few days I'm busy sticking myself to my TV because I have just started watching this Taiwan Drama Series.. It's call Marry me..
A very sweet movie.. Quite funny too.. And I love the songs from this movie..

Yesterday was my daddy's birthday.. This year I didn't buy anything.. Hmm.. I wonder what else my dad need other than money.. Hehe.. At the moment my wallet is dry as the desert.. Hehe.. So any clue on what I should buy? Oh.. Maybe I can bring his car for a wash.. Neh.. I will try to think again.. Was going to celebrate for him tonight as my mum has work last night.. But this morning he told me he has function liao.. So woppie, it's cancelled = =".. Hmm.. My daddy is getting old.. I really wants to bring him and my mum for a holiday.. I wonder when can I do it?

October is coming to an end.. November is coming.. I'm gonna install car alarm for my car next month.. And some accessories too.. wuuu.. gonna cost me lots of money.. And I need to save some money for my Christmas trip.. Planning to go to Kuching with Jita.. Hmm.. donno Nicole wanna go or not.. Must find people to go.. Then our expenses will be lesser.. hehe..

One of my favourite blogger Mamoyo is closing down her current blog and gonna moved.. geeze.. Seem like she couldn't blog in peace as people always comments about her writing and agaisnt her.. She doesn't care about what those mean people are saying.. But still she is a human being.. She gets tired of all those comments too.. If you were in her shoes, I bet you get tired and stress out too.. If those mean people don't like what she blog then why still read her blog all the time? duh..

My blog is sort of my diary.. I used to wrote my daily happening in my Diary.. But now I stopped.. I lost my feelings for keeping a diary ever since when I broke up with one of my ex-boyfriend two years ago.. He stupidly complained that I always keep everything to myself and to my diary and not bother telling him.. duh.. He is just being childish.. But then his words makes me stop writing.. And soon after that I discovered blogs.. So now I'm here.. I'm treating this as a diary.. I'm happy that I can have a place where I can express myself again.. eventhough I don't post entry everyday.. I still treat my blog as my diary.. You get what I mean? hehe.. I know it's boring.. But it's my blog and I love it the way it is.. =)

Selamat Hari Raya~

colorful lights at NBT (Toyota), Brunei

Selamat Hari Raya..
Today is the first day of Hari Raya.. Which is celebrated by Muslim people.. Know as a brand New Year..
Today and tomorrow is public holiday.. haha.. 2days of holidays.. No work.. I'm so bloody happy.. Wish the holidays can be longer.. hehe..
Well, soon we will be celebrating Christmas.. And I must start counting my saving to go on Christmas holiday.. hohoho..

I Finally Found Someone by Barbra Streisand

I found this love song yesterday and immediately I was in love with it.. The lyrics are beautiful.. I can't have enough of it.. hehe.. I keep on repeating it over and over again.. I found it on some people's friendster profile.. So too bad I can't have any link here to share.. Enjoy~ =)

I Finally Found Someone
Barbra Streisand

I finally found someone,
that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one,
that makes me feel complete

We started over coffee,
we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things,
the best things begin

This time it's different,
It's all because of you,
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through

My favorite line was
"Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh,
I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one,
to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do,
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone,
ohhh Someone
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting,
I didn't mind
I apologize,
Baby, that's fine
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine
You know I love your hair,
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear,
Isn't it the time?

You're exceptional,
I can't wait for the rest of my life
This is it, oh,
I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one,
to be with every night

'Cause whatever I do,
It's just got to be you

My life has just begun
I finally found someone,

'Cause whatever I do,
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Saturday~

I achieved some goals before turning 21.. One of my goals is to get my very first car.. mind you, it not some sort of second hand car.. It's brand new.. *sobs* I'm so proud of myself.. haha.. aduh.. now I have to spend less on shopping becoz starting now I have car installment to take care of.. Other than feeding myself, I have my precious car to feed.. hehe.. Even though it's not what ever kind of expensive luxury car but I'm proud that I bought it with my own hard earn money.. Ahh.. should give myself a praise.. Hehe.. I love my baby car so much.. *okok I stop being a show off =p* hahaha..

Nowadays I have been wondering why some couple get married happily at first and who knows at the end get divorce.. Walau, why everything changes so much in the 21st century.. Happily ever after doesn't seem to exist anymore.. It's scary to feel Marriage doesn't seem to work out smoothly anymore.. Some of my friends encounter this problem, I read it in article online and in the magazines, magazines topic like how to survive marriage, it's showing in movies and dramas on TV.. All this effect my thinking, seem like I'm losing faith towards marriage and true love.. People explained to me that it actually depends on our luck and fate.. Quite true huh.. My theory of living happily ever after-fairy tales seem to be fading away.. Can I still believe in my fairy tales dreams? Aduh, it's still a long way to go( years maybe) before I decide to tie the knot.. so I should start praying to God for a good marriage in the future.. hehe..

Tomorrow is Sunday, don't know I need to go to the office or not.. Hope don't need to as I'm waiting for Jennifer to tell me that she and Alvin will come Brunei and bring me along to Limbang then I get to see Sheau Tze again.. Oh, suddenly I taught of vegetarian cuisine.. ahh must date Jita to go eat.. and another thing.. Yyyyyy I can't eat and still stay skinny like some people huh? Aduh, why I must bring up this topic whenever I thought of foodzzz.. hehe.. ok ok I should stop complaining and remind myself that skinny is not good, being chubby is.. hmm.. what do the Feng Sui master call it.. ahh.. Being chubby is a fu qi.. hehe.. How do you say fu qi in English huh? Enjoy food and plz don't get worry about getting fat like I do.. haha.. Juz joking.. Take care.. cheers =)

Went to renew my driving license.. Goodbye 'P' license..

I just reach office.. It's lunch time now.. Well, not because I was late.. It was because I went to Limbang, Sarawak to renew my driving license.. I drove all the way down alone.. Took an hour to get there and another hour to get back Brunei (I drove extremely fast).. Luckily not that traffic jam at the custom..

Renewing driving license is very fast at Limbang.. It just took me not even 30 minutes to get my new driving license.. If I went to Miri, Sarawak to renew, it's gonna takes the whole week.. Well, this is also because Limbang population is small that's way not everyday there will be people.. While for Miri, population is big, and other thing is those people in the rural (lives far far from the city) all headed there so it's like almost everyday packed with people.. Luckily, I'm living in Brunei as Brunei is between Limbang and Miri.. So it's easy for me to travel around by car ofcoz..

I went to Sheau Tze place(her family workshop) and she bring me around.. Her office is so packed of stuffs.. Hehe.. And I saw someone.. Cindy, my housemate and ex-college mate.. I miss seeing her.. I bet S sure told her untruth stuff about me.. I'm afraid to know, and I don't want to know.. I know I'm not wrong, I'm feeling this way because I was really badly hurt by her.. All because of a stupid GUY she betrayed me and broke our friendship..

Anyway.. Lunch time has end.. I will upload more photos as I can soon.. =)

My Baby Vios..

This news is for you my babe Nicole.. I have finally own my very first car.. Yeah.. and I did manage to do it by the age of 21 years old.. I got the car last sunday.. Jita get to ride in my baby liao o.. I wanna drive you around too.. hehe.. Remember the time when you just get your car.. I was lucky to be there to ride le.. hehe.. Actually I wanna share this news with you tonight when I see you.. but since you couldn't make it to the dinner.. So here is my good news for ya.. I so love my baby.. hehe.. by the way it's white.. Super duper white..

ME Birthday~~

Today is ME birthday.. Happy Birthday to ME..^^,

sicky

Being sick is very torturing.. I cough so badly, it makes me sound like a granny.. And I don't know why ah.. Whenever I'm being sick sick I tend to crave for foods which is not good for my cough.. Terrible.. When I'm being healthy I won't think of eating oily-spicy-fired food.. Instead those oily-spicy-fired food look very very delicious when I'm not allow to eat.. Make me very very angry ho.. sienz..

motorola

Oh my.. I just realise that I have not blog for a month already.. hehe.. My baby which I bought last month.. I love it so much.. hhehe..

Sam and Connie

Today an Article I read online caught my attention.. Is it ok to have a relationship with a married guy?.. This articles tells about Sam married at a young age.. He got married to his wife because accident happens.. His wife got pregnant.. So no choice he has to marry her.. He doesn't really love his wife at first.. He gets to be with his wife because he and his friends bet him on chasing his wife.. So he chase his wife and she like him very much until finding him everyday at his house..

It's been three years plus already since they gotten married.. They had a daughter and Sam love his daughter very much.. One day, Sam meet Connie.. Without knowing, he falls for Connie.. And after three months of knowing her.. Sam decided to confess to Connie about his feelings for her.. Connie has surprised ofcoz.. And Sam give her time to think.. Connie knows that there wouldn't be any happiness, if she falls for Sam.. One night, Sam said He loves her but at the same time he doesn't want to hurt her.. But he couldn't control his feelings.. Sam tend to start to love her more.. Connie remind him that he has a wife.. His wife would be really sad if she ever finds out.. Sam told Connie that he did thought of it, but he juz couldn't hide his feelings for Connie..

At the end, Connie tells Sam that it's impossible.. She can't be with him.. She can't falls for him.. Sam accept her decision, but he said to Connie.. "You can't stop me from loving you.. I love you" he continue "Even if you don't love or miss me.. I love and miss you is enough already".. Connie was touched by his words.. Connie just replied him.. "It's enough knowing that you care for me"..

I was curious, if I was Connie, what will my decision be? haha.. What you think huh? If it happens on you, what will u do too? For me, Having such relationship really won't have happiness.. Yea, there will be happy time.. But when that guy returns to his wife side? Who will get hurt in the end? Just like what we always see on movie dramas.. At the end, the guy sure will return back to his wife.. Well, some people do accept this kind of relationships.. Everyone has their own way of thinking.. It's not wrong, it's just a person fate on who they love and who they decide to be with.. Human being thinking and feelings are really complicated..

I met a Fortune teller from China..

Today I was late for work again.. When I arrive, I bump into Uncle * the boss* and he said.. ah Late again.. I quickly greet 'Morning'.. then quickly run away.. Well, I was late not because I woke up late.. It's bcoz I went for breakfast with my mummy and brother.. and the service so damn slow.. Next time have to go extra extra early..

I miss Nicole.. How are you babe? Doing extremly fine I guess.. hehe.. Feels quite lonely witout you reading and comment on my blog..

Songs have memories in it.. I cried each time when I happens to listen to songs which brought back memories flash back in my head.. Well, no worries as it's a very common things happen to human.. Especially emotional one like myself.. I'm not feeling sad or anything in paticular.. It's just memories which are kept in my heart..

A lady fortune teller from China approach me yesterday evening when I was leaving Hua Ho shopping complex.. I was about to drive away then she stop me.. She ask weather I want to have my life tells.. I was curious at what she is trying to say.. and scare at the same time who knows she might try to rob me if I allow her to get in my car.. hehe.. At the end.. I let her in.. hehe.. she told me my problem in life and offers to clear my bad luck away.. By paying B$128.. I was like huh.. I don't wanna pay le.. I said to her that my cash is not enought with me as I have spend.. She look at my bag and said.. "Impossible that only $128 you also don't have".. She even suggest me to take cash out from my ATM!! than I'm starting to feel things aren't right.. So I keep on rejecting her.. Lastly, she gave up and I juz pay for her service.. B$10.. and again she persude me in donating for a blessing.. She said "10 or 20 can already".. I'm like ok ok.. B$10 then.. but what the she say again "miss born in the year of Cow is better to buy in even number, so B$20 is good".. I'm like "shit, she is asking more".. So I quickly said I only have B$10 left and have some malaysia rinngit.. what the then she say ringgit also accept.. but RM20 and B$10.. Walau this woman is good at asking huh.. I say really dont have anymore.. RM10 and B$10 only.. At last she accept and say goodbye and blessing words.. Finally I got rid of her..

I told my dad about it.. Then only I know that newspaper have post about such cases and warn us to avoid this people.. walau.. If only I read the newspaper.. haha.. Nevermind.. Next time, I won't be that soft hearted anymore.. I know they are just looking for cash to live.. but I don't wanna to get cheated.. hehe.. back to work.. ciaozz..

random pictures

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

I took the test above and well, it does describe me.. hehe..

When shopping today after having lunch with *shorty*.. I'm now doing mask to refresh my face.. hehe.. D-I-Y facial mask feels cool and good..

I spend over a hundred plus buying bars and undies.. Shit.. that salegirl so damn good at selling stuff.. I'm the victim.. She introduce me into buying this lovely night gown.. After paying for it then I realise.. What the heck I buy it for? duh..


This is the gift for my mum.. A NINA Ricci perfume and a cute garfield cat which holds the words.. Best Mum..



Amy 'birthday cake.. suppose to be farewell cake.. hehe.. nvm.. as long as can eat liao is enough.. hehe.. Varities of cakes from Ah Khiong.. Not all taste good..

Me with the chocolate from Ah Khiong.. these stuff make me fat lo.. sienzz.. hehe..

I'm me and only me..

It's going to be 4am soon.. I'm now sitting and typing here with my cozy blanket wrap around myself.. It's cold in my room.. hehe because I have been sitting under the Air-cond since 12.15am.. So I'm about to be frezze to death..

I wouldn't sleep.. I saw pictures which brings pain to my heart.. HE and his current galfren pics at KL.. He posted in his friendster.. My wound is still in my heart even though I have recover from the break up and have let go of him.. Seeing her, I tend to say to myself.. That was me before next to him.. but now it ain't me anymore.. Not me.. anymore.. I would stare at his pics and wonder, compare myself to her.. but I wake myself up.. I can't compare myself to her.. I'm patricia and not her.. All I can say is.. I would give up things to be the girl he wants.. but he never gave me that chance.. He was blind.. he coulnd't see the changes I have gone through.. I can't say anything.. coz it's over.. Pull urself together Patricia!! hehe..

I guess I'm starting to feel lonely again.. Wish to find myself a lover but I haven't meet one that suits me yet.. I donno when that day will come for me to meet a guy.. I juz hope its not gonna take long.. hmm.. Am I desprate to be in love now? YES!! hehe..

Well, Im starting to feel sleepy already.. Gosh, I'm gonna be a zombie in the office later.. Zombie with her eyes closed walking around.. hehe.. cheers..

Our Number 1 Float~~!

After the Sultan's b-day 15/7/06 project.. We went busy with the float thingy which falls during the first of this month August.. My company gets to do 4 floats.. Very big and pretty.. On the day of the float function, I was the only girl who took part in joining with the floats from my company.. Not sure what others will think, as long as I'm happy.. We went to the place for stand by at 4pm.. and all the way untill 2am then I went home.. We went back happily bcoz our BLNG float got NUMBER 1!! Boss was very happy indeed.. he told as we must get 1 no 2.. haha.. Thank God we did it..

BLNG float which we got Number 1 for.. Big and beautiful..

It's turning dark.. Night is falling.. Pretty lights are switch on..

I find this float cute looking.. but too bad it didn't manage to get in the Top 10..

this float falls at Number 5..

And lastly.. I never thought this flaot will get any position.. who knows it gotten Number 6.. Happy coz I spend more time on this float..

Never to judge a book by it's cover

I'm now currently in the office.. Have meeting with boss tonight so have to come back to the office.. This few days I don't work OT already.. Feels weird but I love it.. Coz I get to hug my tv the whole night and suft the net..

*geez* I cant help in but to admit Im looking fat now.. Bloody.. but u cant blame me for being happy.. Donno wats up, I din eat much.. but I kind of looking fat.. Jita say coz Im happy.. no reason.. haha.. izzit? I did go swimming le.. NOt that I din exercise.. hoho.. watever.. Im juz being happy.. *wait a minute* must be all those sweet food ah Khiong bought for me.. shit.. hehe..

Today something bothers me.. a question popping around my head.. Do guys get jealous at girls on work matter? and why are ppl so busybody when things isn't about them? Stupid eh some ppl.. Some ppl who I thought are mature but bloody.. who knows they are so childish on some typical matter.. Again to remind myself..Never to judge a book by its cover.. I will blog more later.. Gotta go meeting now.. Time's up.. ciaozzz..

The song 'linger' (hope the spelling is rite) by the Canberries have been playing on the radio and I keep on thinking of my dear Nicole.. Wondering that she must be happy over there.. I wish to join them.. But I cant..

Went to the Mall with Jita juz now, went to see the PC fair.. Guess who we saw when we were looking for parking? hehe.. Nicole's parent.. I shout out 'auntie', and luckily her mum did saw me.. hiak hiak..

Amy has resign.. She said she is pregeant.. So I will be busy again from now on.. Im gonna handle more work from now on.. sienz.. There is already a replacement but has to wait for work pass to get approve then can work.. This new comer is a lady.. same age as me.. quite prety looking, tall.. most of the guys in the company is already attracted by her.. hoho.. hope her style is not bossy or fussy.. sighz.. no idea how to teach her as Im not patient with teaching ppl.. Hope I get it through.. *sighzz*

I'm being moody...

Nowadays I really wanna sit down to blog at home.. But whenever I'm back home my eyes tend to automatically close, which makes me blog now in the office.. I'm really getting tired and tired.. I'm really wandering what job I really wants to work for.. I don't want to work like this eventhough it's not bored. and my job is challenging.. I get tired too.. I'm no superwoman.. How long till I know what kind of job I'm really looking for?

Maybe becoz I'm in a country which isnt my place and they don't hire foreigner.. If I'm at places which I belong too then maybe things would be different.. Since coming back from Miri tat day, I really got myself to think alt of questions again..

Maybe bcoz of Love too.. all my frenz have love one beside them.. where is mine? It's not tat no one chase me.. Just tat this guys are not my type.. No feelings.. Am I being to chossy? Haiz... Maybe I'm tired tat why I'm thinking so much.. God bless me..

Feels like a free Bird

Finally.. I'm going to Miri later in the morning at 6am.. I miss very damn so so much.. It's feels great to be away from work.. Away from endless work.. Away from bloody stress.. I feel like I'm finally set free from nightmare.. hehe.. sound serious.. But then it's really serious ba.. haha.. What I'm worrying right now is my panda eyes.. my eyebag is so thick.. and Jita say I look abit swollen.. strange.. I know my eyes very very swollen donno why my face is swollen too.. hehe.. So sweet of ah How to come Brunei to pick me.. Nicole dear, here I come.. Miri here I come..