Letting go with tears instead of smiles, ain't that bad =)

Currently I'm watching a Singapore drama series 'Let it go-分手快乐' by Jeanette Aw and Elvin Ng.... Below quoted from the drama, I find it meaningful and true..

"Someone says trust is like a piece of paper, 
Once it's crumpled, it can never return to it's original form, 

People in love give love because of trust, 
When trust is gone they love will trepidation, 
A love without trust will end up hurting eventually, 

A love wound is the most difficult wound to heal in the world, 
But nobody else can see it, but you can feel the pain all the time, 

Though love gives us tears and heartbreak, 
We won't be scared to cry because of this, 
Crying repeatedly means we used to smile repeatedly in the past too, 

When two people can no longer be in love, 
Break up with a smile instead of crying in each other's arms.
It's good to just let it go.."

It's not easy letting go with a smile, we face the hurt as a process to recovery, we cry alot..
I think crying is not wrong, its to release and express, cry out and you'll feel much better..
No matter how hurt it is, be strong and have positive thinking..
Short or long time, eventually the wound will heal..
Have hope, faith, love.

邱意淋 - 别太寂寞

7th day of CNY

Tonight went to Jin Liang's girlfriend house, Bee Bee's then lastly to Chung An's.. Pai Nian~~


New Flame - Chris Brown feat Usher and Rick Ross


Style - Taylor Swift

Healer

Finished with watching the drama 'Healer'.. Seo Jung Hoo totally my style.. haha.. Full of cuddles between the actor and actress romance.. Especially my favorite back hug! haha

I love how he protect his love one.. especially his girl.. he love hugging and holding her hands.. awww~~ I'm hug struck! Yes, I love bear hug and hold hands ;)

Seo Jung Hoo/Park Bong Soo- "The things I like: high places (rooftop), first snow, small hands, white bedding and that hair..
The things I don't like: anything and everything that keeps me away from those."

Chae Young Shin- "The things I like: the sound of the camera shutter he makes, his big hands, smiling eyes and big embrace..
The things I don't like: anything and everything that keeps me away from those."

 

 

 

눈이 하는 말 (What the eyes say) - Tei


You - Ben

Pinocchio

Had a nice dinner with the girls earlier for Sushi, feeling thankful to SYuan for the treat!!

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Done watching the drama 'Pinocchio'.. the story of the drama is good, about reporters and how important news reporting the truth, as it revolves about how life's at stakes if lies are reported as news..

Park Shin Hye's character is a lady who can't lie.. I feel that she looks better pairing up with actor Lee Jung Suk rather than Lee Min Ho.. haha.. both are fair and cute looking.. I didn't cried the part when Choi Dal Po have to separate from his brother who was going to jail.. sad dao.. but anyway, it a happy ending story :)

3 days to Valentine's Day

Yesterday afternoon I received a surprise from a delivery man at my office! Pretty Valentine's day flowers.. I find it so pretty that I kept looking at it today.. I have always love receiving flowers.. haha

Its been almost 4 years since the last time I received Valentine's Day flowers.. I felt so grateful and happy.. I already forgot how it felt.. haha.. Thank You Grace!

We actually went to the same college and stayed at the same hostel on short term but never really kept in touch.. Then we met back in Brunei and there's one time I seek her help to teach me on baking cupcakes.. Then she got busy with life, career and only recent we start catching up again..

I'm always thankful to catch up with old friends.. no matter if we are close or not.. its always nice and grateful to see each other.. Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone out there!

林凡 Freya Lim&符致逸 Adrian Fu- 套不住

A-Lin - 罪惡感

9 days to chinese new year 2015~

I love all the songs below! not sure if I'll manage to memories all the lyrics for some karaoke session.. Chinese reading fail! T.T anyway, just a random title for this post.. hehe

周杰伦 & 陳奕迅 - 淘汰

Eason 陳奕迅 - 7

陳奕迅 + 王菲 - 因為愛情

張靚穎 - 好不容易

Let it be calm?

one is the calm, other one is the serious respect..

I felt it by the look, certain ways, friendly touch.. or maybe I caught it wrongly..

not sure if calm may happen.. but serious respect definitely won't happen, I should say can't happen because I felt the strong trust..

caught few glances from calm but too shy to look back.. serious respect appear almost everywhere and it need to be out from my mind.. luckily a once in a blue moon occasion..
  
算什麼男人: 周杰倫

永遠永遠: JAMES楊永聰

Love do change each of us

Bought 2 new novels at Penang, not sure when I will read it. I have few books on pending.. Book 3 of Fifty Shades (Fifty shades of Freed) is waiting for me to finish.. So I told myself that I must complete the book 3 when I return home from the Penang trip, I have put it on hold for so long. Finally, I can say I completed the books.. lol

The ending: Happily ever after..  I'm glad to know that Christian Grey fell love at first sight for Anastasia Steele.. I cried at a few part for book 3.. CG is possessive and protector but indeed he loves AS so much.. I pity his childhood to his teenage past and he after becoming a dad himself, he finally realize the relationship between him and Mrs Robinson and the past women was wrong.. so wrong.. but its great that he, a cold man changed into a warm and loving person after meeting AS..

It's label as an erotic novel, but it's also a romance novel, the love story between CG and AS. It's a story telling that love can change a person to better, love change his thinking and to understand the love for the woman he love so much..

You're All Surrounded

You're All Surrounded.. Also a worth and nice drama to watch! Especially cute actors but what I like most is their character, different and funny :)

What's wrong with me by San E  (feat Kang Min Hee)


I'm in love by Lee Seung Chul

It's Okay, It's Love

It's Okay, It's Love drama, practically the main reason I watched it is because of Lee Kwang Soo.. haha.. Anyway, I enjoyed this drama.. It's touching, funny, sweet and lee kwang soo.. haha.. I also love all the soundtrack from this drama! Worth watching :)

 

 

Gossip Girl

Gossip Girl.. I started watching the series when it first broadcast in year 2009 and I'm loving it ever since but I stopped half away at Season 2.. And recently I started watching it again from Season 2.. I actually forgot much of Season 1 but its okay, after finishing all season I may re-watch Season 1.. haha

 

Last night I finished with Season 4, I'm too addicted with it! The dramas and conflict with the gang, their friendship, Chuck and Blair love war relationship, Who Serena will really end up with, the parties and fashion, how strong will Rufus and Lily marriage be.. I'm left with the last  two season now, can't wait to complete it.. I'm definitely a fan of Chuck and Blair, ever since the first season.. xoxo :)

The Pierces - We are stars


The Drums - Down by the water


Kendal Johansson - Blue Moon

Good to see old friends who are not frequently in touch with..

Two days holiday straight.. I'm loving it of course.. But tomorrow is back to work.. How do I motivate myself to work? Sighs

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Had sungkai dinner earlier at buffelo... Not my liking.. I only like their pasta, salad and mango fish tonight.. 

After that with Ling Zhi and the rest went for a walk to mall.. and I bump into my secondary ex classmate Zawanah.. Been years since I last saw her, still looking pretty and she slim down a lot.. Had small chat and bid goodbye..

At the very exact same place last Friday-

Centrepoint hotel lobby.. I bumped into Joseph bong too.. He is still working as a tour guide.. He suddenly caught my attention by tapping my shoulder.. Turn around and I was surprise to see him haha.. Prolly two years I have not met him.. A friend I knew since my part time days in form 4.. Then coincidentally went to the same college, but he is a year younger junior.. He never fail to make laugh and tease me for being blur.. good old godbrother no.2..

Inside the mall saw good old godbrother no.1 from afar so just wave as greeting.. Ah Choon and his wife to be.. He is getting married this coming November.. He invited me but I'm not too sure if I can attend.. Let's see how~~

p.s, only during part time days I had godbrother.. only 2 of them..

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The country enforce a new law that dinning during day time at restaurant are not allowed for the whole month of ramandan period (puasa month).. Hottest issue for this month.. I'm hoping that they will reconsider restructure for non Muslim connivence.. Anyway, new bubble tea in town again.. T4.. Tried their pearl milk tea.. Quite nice.. I still like Ochado better.. 

Omg too sleepy.. Abit worry that I can't wake up on time tomorrow morning.. night!

15th July 2014

HM's 68th birthday today.. The country where I grew up at.. Anyway It's public holiday today so it's a rest day.. loving it..

Spent my day finishing the current drama which I'm watching.. Panda and Hedgehog.. Hmmm which drama to watch next? 

Wanted to go out for tea but I didn't know who to look for.. and so went to had some cheese instead.. Night..

Loving you - Super Junior KRY, Panda and Hedgehog OST


Don't Go - Lee Donghae, Panda and Hedgehog OST

Congrats Germany!

And so... Germany won the 2014 World Cup!

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Its Lee Kwang Soo birthday today! My favorite person from Running Man and giraffe.. totally my type- funny, tall and nice! haha.. Happy Birthday Kwang Soo!

Kwang Soo commercial - SK Tarara in 2013

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Just came out from the Empire cinema, first time here after their renovation.. Our seats was row A but Infront of me sat a tall guy and he partically block most of my view.. Lol

Watched Dawn of the planet of Apes.. Nice movie.. Human and connection with Apes.. Suppose Apes living alright but ended up fight and war because of an apes hateness feeling and wanting to revenge.. 

Revenge is a scary feeling and mindset.. Remember to forgive and choose to be at peace.. It's hard but defitnetly takes time.. Revenge won't make life happier.. Forgive and letting go will.. Cheers

Cheese and Sushi

Last night went over to pyong and kwang's house to eat birthday cake. Pyong's birthday... Ade currently holidaying in the US, SY holidaying in the UK, Pying holidaying at HK so that's why only me, Pyong, Chien and Fab in the picture below.. Lol.. 

Anyway, We tried some cheese.. They bought it from their last trip.. Not bad.. I'm a cheese person! Lol.. 

World Cup match earlier at 4am.. Brazil vs Netherlands.. Brazil 4th place.. Netherlands 3rd place.. 

Ended up chatting until very early in the morning... I reached home and slept at 6am... Thank god that it's Sunday today!

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And so I woke up around noon today lol.. So thankful for tonight sungkai meal at Misato mahbohai branch and Starbucks drink.. Chien's colleague treat and she ask me to join them.. I'm a happy girl.. 

I know Chien's colleagues also for about 3 years, few I known are not in Brunei already.. Their project is ending and slowly each of them will be leaving Brunei.. Eventhough I only met them during few occasion, to me.. they are funny and nice people.. Like family to Chien :)

Later World Cup final match at 3am.. Germany vs Argentina! Germany! hehe..

Should have trim it at 1 or 2 inch!

Loving this drink. Tipco's Mixed Vegetable & Mixed Fruit Juice BEETROOT formula :D

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Decided to head to the salon for hair trim after work.. Ended more like a cut.. The stylish asked if I want to chop off 2 inch? I see here, see there and told her 3 inch instead.. Omg kinda regret coz it's abit too short for my liking and I'm looking funny without beauty filter apps.. haha.. I don't like their blow style too.. Oh well, I can't do anything now.. Just comfort myself that hair will still grow long!

Random stuff I want to share..

Had a good long talk tonight at Coffeebean.. I believe we manage to express some thought across.. Friends who can turn into family are hard to find.. Cherish and appreciate them..

To some.. The person you love the most, won't be your life partner.. But feelings and acceptance can be build.. Its always best to have a partner to accompany you for the rest of your life journey..

I like and am comfortable being silent in a group of people.. Could be the shyness or lack of confident or doesn't bother or I just like being a listener.. But I like communicating with my other half and I would want him to be my listener.. Friends who know me for quite some time, find it surprising that I'm actually talkative when in small group or being alone with me..

Other than the reason being born in the year of a cow, I believe I inherit bad temper and stubbornness from my dad.. Shyness and thinks too much from my mom.. hmmm who did I inherit slowness from....... hehe

I love music.. Especially lyrics which I find it meaningful or its melody..

Its a wonderful thing to be able to tell someone that you miss and love them freely.. Without thinking much or boundaries from stopping you.. Do says as much as you can and while you can..

I used to love reading novels.. Still love actually but less.. Unless Harry Potter have new stories.. I have been putting Fifty Shades - Part 3 on hold since last year.. Let me see.. Stuck at Chapter 18...

Watching drama series is my all time love now.. Finished Faith, Master's sun, City Hunter, Queen In Hyun's Man, Emergency couple, Let's eat, Miss Korea, Shut up flower boy band, I need romance 1, 2 & 3, School 2013.. Currently Panda and Hedgehog.. 

I used to blog frequently.. Almost everyday.. I slowed down or stopped since my last relationship.. I kinda shut myself out.. I'm waiting to be save again..

Sky diving at Australia or New Zealand, hot air balloon ride at New Zealand or Turkey, sky walk at Macau are in my to do list..

Maybe I should be a photographer since I like taking pictures.. But I don't like being all sweaty being outdoor.. lol

If I don't get fat easily I will eat eat eat and eat without worrying..

I missed out few buses through the years.. I'm not too sure if I've made the right decision for all.. But some I do see and am glad that I made the right decision.. But of course some do got me thinking what or where I will be at if I took the driver's hand.. 

I love dog and ever thought of having dog as pet before.. But actually I'm scare of dog.. Especially active one or when they bark a lot.. I don't like cleaning and grooming lol..

Back in primary school.. Learning the piano or violin was something I want..

Only few months back I remembered I use to volunteer as a librarian in primary school.. After Linda mentioned about liking being a librarian back in school..

Being able to travel to experience and seeing different places, lifestyle and culture is really awesome.. Must travel!

At the same time, wishing I can afford my own property while having enough cash for traveling and luxuries stuff..

I'm kinda still in search for the job I like.. Honestly, I do not really know the direction I should head to.. 5 days work please!!

Don't know how to swim well but I love being in the pool or go swimming.. Wen Chien insist that I actually know how to swim but Nooooo.. haha.. I don't know how to float too! I panic easily so sometime water may get into my nose, totally dislike the pain..

Wondering when the other half will appear.. 

Celebrating birthday is something I'm not looking forward too anymore.. Great if I can be away on holiday during the birthday week.. But anyhow, to be able to celebrate with family and close friends is thankful enough..

Family is becoming more important than ever.. 

I'm very grateful for all that I have in life.. Thankful to god..

2ø14 少了一個你

Had a dream about CH, one of a good person I came to known off, one of the buses I missed.. Then earlier I suddenly realize that I actually forgot to greet happy birthday when I message CH the other day.. Bet CH was excepting for my greeting because I suddenly message on the actual day.. blur head me.. Luckily not too late for belated greeting :)

io樂團-2ø14 少了一個你

14-6-2014

Remembered the day, but guess will remain silent.. Have I been forgotten?

Miss Korea.. This drama abit long winded.. but still good to watch as some secne are touching and funny.. In the drama, The year when they introduce BB cream and natural lip gloss.. Misunderstanding do cause break up.. 10 years of not contacting and they still fall for each other.. Never look down on people.. and etc..

Moonlight by Onew


Every Single Day - New World


J Min - Hero

Cambodia and KL trip - 24th May to 1st June 2014

I went to Siem Reap, Cambodia instead of Vietnam for holiday.. Due to the chaos cause at the factories attacking the Chinese at Hanoi, we decided to cancel flying to Vietnam.. Few air tickets burn ofcourse.. But actually to me its still alright to travel but since Wen Chien's family advice better not to go, so I agreed to their advice too for both our safety.. So how did we ended up to Cambodia, its because Connie and her friends are heading there.. and Connie took pity of me.. haha.. She asked if me and WC want to join her.. We accept her kindness and offer! We flew from Miri to KL to Siem Reap..

How's Siem Reap, Cambodia? HOT.. Extremely HOT weather they have there.. The locals explain because it was the dry season.. As long as we stepped out from the hotel, we are sweating like running water.. and I turn tan..

Anyway, our visit to Angkor Wat was good.. The place really have beautiful structure and seeing how it last for centuries really amaze us.. Only one shopping mall there but sell nothing interesting.. Just buy from their old and night markets is more than enough.. I didn't buy much too.. bought souvenirs, a button shirt for my dad, tshirt for the boys, home wear dress and knee length pants for my mum.. more for myself haha - two pcs knee length pants, two over the knee length dress, two pcs long pants, a scarf, two pcs blouse and I don't remember anymore.. lol

One of the highlight from the trip is my first experience at shooting range.. real guns! We didn't know where to go during our first day there.. WC and I flew in a day earlier than Connie so while waiting for them we plan our own visit first.. Shooting range wasn't in our plan, WC randomly search online on 'what to do' and we found out about shooting range.. Asked the tuk tuk few questions to be sure then off we go.. There is shooting range available at Vietnam too which we were already planning to try there but since we couldn't be at Vietnam so we didn't hesitate to try at Siem Reap..  

The tuk tuk ride took us about 20-30mins one way to the place.. Its kinda locate at the outskirt of Siem Reap.. Thinking back, WC and I were kinda brave as the place is sort of like military army camp.. When we arrived there, all mens.. I think I saw a lady only.. Paid USD50 per gun type for I forgot how many bullets.. was it 25 or 50 or 100? haha.. We tried M16 and AK47, not much guns available for shoot because they don't have bullet stock.. The guns are heavy.. Scary, exciting yet fun.. Freaking loud when we pulled the trigger.. I'm just glad its over and I had a good experience.. haha

Before flying to Cambodia, WC and I stayed over at KL for two night and while when we return back to KL, we stay another night.. Quite a good trip to KL this time, ate lots of food.. managed to visit I-City and Melaka too.. happy! Thankful to Micheal and Toh bringing us around, Michelle for fetching us at airport, ah Kuan for driving me to Cafe Bene and meeting the boys..

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Loving this new song by Kang Gary.. 3rd spot.. if not mistaken on Korea Music Chart..
I even posted in on my FB page and tagged Shirley.. She is a fan of Leessang's song and Running Man so she know Kang Gary.. hehe


Your Scent by Kang Gary and Jung In